World tilting perspective shift

I doubted one occurrence, one moment, the sharing of one piece of information could change me completely. But here I stand, corrected. 

What I value, what I want and when I feel gratitude hasn’t only adjusted. It morphed into a completely different set of values. 

The nit picking things I worried about before, barely even a blip on my radar. 

Goals that felt as though they carried the weight of the world and made it spin upon its axis, shifted. 

My daily reality, seemingly identical to every other week before, is completely different. 

If it were positive news, I don’t think I would have the gratitude I do now. That part is a bit confronting.

Realising that if by God's good grace it was positive, I wouldn’t even know how lucky I was. I wouldn’t know just how thankful I should be.

But because it’s not, I somehow feel even more gratitude for what I have left. 

Difficult times are opportunistic. They weasel their way into parts of your life and try to ruin you from the inside out. 

This is the most difficult thing I’ve ever experienced and will continue to experience for the rest of my life. It will only get harder. But something good has to come out of it, somehow. 

Even if it’s just a world tilting perspective shift.